mental-health
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October 30, 2026
It has been a few days since I have made the time to sit and write. I have had a house guest, a good friend that I spend time with at least monthly. It is nice to be able to talk to someone in a different way than I do the boyfriend. It has been…
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Dear Nikki,
I never thought it would come down to one of us saying goodbye to the other. I am sad that this is where we are. I really thought you were going to be a friend till the end. But life changes us, trauma changes us, hell even healing changes us. Today, I will be writing…
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October 22,2026
Last night I printed and edited the first draft of the new book. I haven’t ever shared my life like this and it is a really weird feeling. I went looking for some pictures last night of Arizona in the early to mid 80s when we were there. I almost felt transported when I seen…
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October 21, 2026
The depression is pretty deep today. I struggled getting out of bed and even getting coffee this morning. I know therapy is supposed to be helpful but many times, the day after I just feel like shit. I think of everything two and even three times ad am like an emotional bomb just waiting to…
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October 20, 2026
I am trying to get better at writing daily, but it is a struggle. Today is a day to celebrate however and something I feel important to document for myself. I am 21 years cancer free today. I had to have a full hysterectomy at 25 and it was really devastating for me. I had…
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I woke up in a rage….
I have been missing my little bug lately (my godson “Jack”) and I wonder how he is doing. I still have a very hard time grieving the loss of her friendship. I talk about her and us a lot in therapy and while I have made peace with my decision to respect my own boundaries,…
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October 3rd, 2026
Seems kind of stupid to just date this post since it is already dated but I can’t think of anything clever. I am tired today for whatever reason. I am thinking the new med change. But, today is a busy day for us. I am trying to get motivated but I have only had one…
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So many drafts….
It has been a minute since I have written. Granted I really haven’t written much regardless of how much I think about writing and have tons to say. It seems as though I am conflicted with myself on how to move forward. A part of me wants to be anonymous, but the other part of…
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Wednesday 7/29/26
I have no idea what to name today’s post at all so it is what it is lol. I had to do some late errands for the boyfriend tonight. We are leaving next week for a vacation to Puerto Rico (both first time!) and we needed our oil changed. Usually, this is something he would…
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Time to get excited!
A lof of what I will be sharing on these posts and upcoming pages are so depressing. Honestly, one of the biggest reasons I haven’t shared. However, my life isn’t all dread and dreary and dark. While building my life over I re kindled a long ago romance with a man that was the one…
