Dear Nikki,

I never thought it would come down to one of us saying goodbye to the other. I am sad that this is where we are. I really thought you were going to be a friend till the end. But life changes us, trauma changes us, hell even healing changes us.

Today, I will be writing you a letter telling you goodbye. You will always be one of the best and my most favorite chapters. I hope you find all in life that you ever wished for. That you heal from all the pain you have ever had to endure and that you find your home and your safety. I pray that you find your calling and you find your peace. I also pray that you uplift that gift that god gave you and use it for his will. I pray that you envelope your boy in love and include him in all things and that he grows to be strong and loving and caring. I hope that if it is in your heart you be blessed with another life. I hope that life is kind to you for the rest of your days leaving the rough patches behind you. I am sorry for everything that i have ever said that caused you pain or discomfort. I am grateful to you for your friendship and the care you showed me through some of my harder times. I will take nothing but the good from our friendship with us moving forward and leave all the mess behind us. With an understanding that you and I have just decided on very different paths of life and love. i will continue to support and love you from afar. I am so sad that with this I will lose Jack but you have made your choices in that way already and I kind of already have. I have to make peace with that. I will include in my letter some of the provisions that I have made for Jack along with my boys when I am no longer here in this world.

I do love you and wish the absolute best for you! You will always be my tadpole.

~Rose